White bread with mashed avocado, shepherd’s pie with some cucumber and tomato.
We had both grilled and smoked trout and garlicy potatoes for lunch.
Chocolate cheesecake and coffee.
Tea and a chocolate pastry.
It feels so sad when you are with a group of people and realise that you are basically still all alone unless you aggressively fight your way into the conversation. Several times I found myself starting to tell a story or add something to the general conversation, only to quickly understand that I was basically talking to myself. After I had stopped talking in mid-sentence without anyone noticing for about three times, I gave up and didn’t talk at all. Don’t think anyone noticed that either.
Am I that uninteresting? Annoying? Or am I secretly unwanted in the company? I have no idea. But I felt unwanted and alone. Things just plummeted down to dark depths for me after that. It didn’t help that I was feeling quite sick again too.
At least the environment was pretty. And the food was good.