I am weak… 18. October 2016

 Boiled pelmeni and a cup of coffee.

 Fried eggs, some avocado and boiled wieners.


Writing is not going well. Most of the time it’s not happening at all. I cry a lot and feel so so awful. I have this sinking feeling in my stomach that this all will fail… and I am wondering why I am even torturing myself for another two months when I know I can’t do it. Why can’t I just drop it and move on with my life? I’m not good right now.

2 thoughts on “I am weak… 18. October 2016

  1. E-Gusta says:

    I have written a couple of dissertations in my time, and always find it traumatic. Mostly because I am a perfectionist and afraid of failure. What I found helps its to just write. Just write, think it does not MATTER what comes out at first. Just get the stuff onto the page. Set you alarm for 20 minutes and write. Then stop. Then set your alarm again and write. If fear is preventing you from settling into it, it can be overcome by just forcing yourself to set something- anything- down.

    You can edit it later.

    That works for me. 🙂


    • annika says:

      I think the fear of failure has a big part to play in my case, which is odd as if it’s pushing me towards failure.
      I’ll give your method a try, thank you for the suggestion 🙂


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